good samaritan

Gosh, it's been a while since I last updated my blog. I just remembered this afternoon when I was going to school, when I was riding the jeep and saw the goodness on a group of people. Suddenly I remembered, "oh yeah, I have a blog, so basically I can share this experience."

So like I said, I suddenly remembered that I have a blog, so here I am, writing again. hehe..

Anyways, going back to the real scoop of this story.

I know that prices are going up, everything is going up, from food, gasoline, transportation fee, tuition fees, EVERYTHING!

So people are a bit to conscious about spending money now a days, since it's really hard these days, and some even dare to steal stuff, like money, cars, etc.

But this afternoon, while I was riding the jeep going to Santolan LRT station, when our jeep was just waiting for the traffic light to go green in the Junction area in Cainta, A guy who was going to ride another jeep just beside our jeep, I saw him taking that step to ride the jeep, then a looked away to the other side, when I suddenly heard a group of people shouting at someone, saying "hey mister, you dropped something, hey mister, you dropped your wallet!"

When I turned to my right to look at it, I saw the same guy, going down the jeep to get his wallet on the road, then it suddenly dawned on me, "wow, there are still good samaritans here in the world, despite the hardship that everyone is going through, especially these difficult times."

I know for some, they might just grab the chance on grabbing the wallet from the road and just run for it, but that very moment, everyone who actually saw the event that the guy's wallet fell from his pocket tried to get his attention by telling him that his wallet fell.

That's why for this day, I salute to the people who were able to do a good deed, and I do hope, that there would be more people who would also do a good deed.

"Don't do to other's, what you don't want them to do unto you."

what is this im feeling now?

it can really make someone feel great when they know for a fact that the one they love, loves them back too..

when he knows that his special someone will do no harm..

when he knows that he could fully trust his partner..

when he knows that no one could ever replace him..

when he knows that his secure under his tight hug..

when he knows that there will be no secrets..

when they can freely do, go, and hang out with friends without any doubts..

when no one can ever do or say anything bad to destroy them..

when he knows that his special someone will love him forever..



but, doesn't it hurt when you know that the one you love just sometimes takes you for granted..

here you are, sitting in the dark, waiting..

and time passes by,

looking at your phone,

hoping,

praying,

that he is safe and will be ok..

T_T

tension tension tension...

The finals week is about to begin, and now tension is really building up inside me as to what scores I might get in my subjects. I just hope that my grades in all my classes aren’t failing grades. By the time the final exams end, we will need to hasten our pace in all our requirements because of the missed class due to unavoidable events and meetings per college. This is really getting so stressful. Grrr.. But I have to admit, I am enjoying my stay right now at Trinity, and I really do hope that I will graduate soon.

looking back at someone i admire....

Looking back, August 5, 2009, we were able to witness former President Corazon "Cory" Aquino's burial at Manila Memorial Park. I remember the first interview I had at the first university I attended way back 2003, which was University of Asia and the Pacific. The interviewer asked me if I had the chance to speak to a powerful person, influential, saint, pope, or anyone who has touched all our lives or made a big impact to the world and our country dead or alive, and why. I simply answered President Cory Aquino; because she has let us Filipino's open our eyes to what is happening in our country and also showed us democracy. As well as her other notable accomplishments to the country. And now as she rests in peace may she know that the Filipino's will always remember her and how she has touched many lives. Now back to a student's life, as this week is about to end the finals are drawing near. I still can't believe that the finals are about to start next week. I just hope that everyone will be able to pass in our exams.

having doubts...

im really having doubts right now with my studies..

im not quite sure if it was right for me to quit my job..

What's important is that I get through this exams, and graduate.

And just yesterday I found out that one of my friends was really depressed as to because she didn't get the job that she wanted. I felt her emotions even though we just talked over the Internet on yahoo messenger, but like I said, I really felt her emotions. My friend wasn't really like this, when she would apply for a job, and when she doesn't get the job, her simple reaction to me would just be, "I tried, but I didn't get in", but now, she was really down. I really want to cheer her up, but I don’t know how to.

Is it true what some of the people say right now, that, some people who are of degree holders' cant even get a job nowadays, and I worked for three years without a degree. Sometimes I begin to wonder, is the degree, or diploma really needed?

back to business..

the last time i was in school was year 2005, i was currently enrolled at USJR or university of san jose recoletos, in Cebu city for just one semester. after my semester at USJR, i was on a plane back to manila to take a break. my father was really disappointed in what happened to me at Cebu, they expected to much from me. I wasn't able to cope up when i was in Cebu, for starters, they were all speaking in the Cebuano dialect. even though my mom was from Zamboanga, i could only understand so little from what they were saying.

this journey was going down the drain.

going back to manila was something i was really excited with. but i had a price to pay. when i got back here, my parents totally decided for me to quit school. i had no choice, and i didn't quite had the right to tell my opinion, since i already wasted three years of my life by just being a jerk at school.

since i was going to be just a total bum, when i got back here, i decided to work, it was June 25 when i got here in manila. by June 26 i was already hired a call center company at Eastwood city libis. to make this story short, i worked there for 3 years, being an customer service representative for a financial campaign, it was a debt management campaign, and i was a debt management consultant for Americans, Canadians, basically all over the world.

then getting tired of my job, i decided to apply for a higher position, but i didn't get the job i wanted.

this is where i want to finish my studies..

its been a long time since i went to school. will i ever make it?

the truth behind the smile

once i start to smile or make jokes with some of my friends, they often think that they already know me.

that's where they're wrong. i may like to smile, or laugh, or even make jokes. but the truth is there is a lot more behind my pretty face, a lot more things that im not revealing. i once heard in a cartoon about a smile, the character said that, "smiling is the only thing that you can do when you think that you nothing else to do, especially in times of odd moments.." i'd like to think that what the cartoon character said is pretty much true. in times that you feel embarassed, sad, down, problemed, or in any other situation, a smile can just simply cover it up, and the people around you wouldnt even notice that you have a big problem on your hands at the very moment.

i have to admit, im one of the people who really likes to cover up my image, or to cover up my emotions. when i feel so down, i dont want to let other people feel what im feeling, i really dont want them to know that i have a problem, or something is bothering me. for me, i like it when people tend to run to me for advice, when they ask me for my opinion, but when it comes to my problems, i like to try and solve them for myself first, and it that fails, that's the only time that i run to my friends or family for help.

i dont want to ruin everything for the people around me, with just me being down.

i know i may be selfish in terms with my problems, but i know that they too have problems of their own that they need to overcome, and i dont want to bother them with more problems.

my psychology professor told us once that, the human brain is like a cup, once it gets full, it will overflow and may break down, i try not to let that happen..

instead on dwelling on the past and problems i have to face, i really try my best to just smile about it. hehehe.. one things for sure, i am really a filipino. one of the habits or traits of a filipino is that they just simply smile when problems come there way, and just try to simply brush it off.

behind this pretty smile, there are a lot of things that are on my mind.

graduating at the age of 23 or 24..
get the degree or diploma my parents ever wanted..
try to be a good son to my parents..
to be a mature individual..
to give my parents the best that they deserve for bringing me up..
to get things right in my life..
getting a steady job that can support my family..
thinking if what im doing is right..
try not to get stressed when it comes to studies..
dont think too much..
lessen on cigarettes..
lessen on drinking..
keep on being a faithful partner..
show my other relatives that i can do anything even though im gay..
show them that a person will not be a hindrance for me to graduate..

the only thing that i really have my mind on right now that is really bothering me, is, how can i give my parents the grandchild that they deserve, when im gay..